Bit of nolstagia
I'm having a taste of nolstagia right now. I've decided to go through my posts I made on my LiveJournal account (username: allstardiva2005) to help me with a project. I haven't started yet, but just thinking about the past makes me want to write. In my sophomore and part of junior year of high school, I wanted to be a sports journalist. I watched the same amount of sports as I do now and I actually blog more now, but I also wrote in my LJ. I wrote about everything – relationships, beliefs, pain, dreams, school, work, etc. I look back and sometimes I can't believe that I, Christy Hammond, wrote that. It sounds like it came from someone else's mind and I find it hard to imagine that I actually came up with that phrase, sentence, or paragraph.
Lately, I've been wishing I could find a way to write down the things that I have been thinking. I usually "think" my best when I'm lying in bed trying to fall asleep and it's so frustrating because I rarely remember that stuff by the time I wake up. But I'm going to work really hard on writing more often because it's important for me to see how I change throughout the years and it's very theraputic for me. I currently have 5 blogs: this one, one that is acting as my exercise/food blog to help me lose weight, my hockey blog, my pre-med one, and one for teens dealing with chronic pain and illnesses.
I haven't told anyone yet, but I think I want to write a book for Young Adults Dealing with Chronic Pain and Illnesses from a Christian perspective. I know of some great Christian books on pain, but haven't really found one catered to college students and younger. I'm not doing it for money or for my resume, but because I think I have something to tell and I believe I can learn a lot from trying to do this. I'm spending a lot of my free time looking for relevant Bible verses, inspirational quotes, anecdotes, and of course researching common chronic pain conditions and chronic illnesses amoung young adults. I'm kind of afraid to tell my family because I feel like I'll either get (1) pressured to work on it more than what I want each day or (2) they'll laugh at my dream.
I just know that there are so many young girls (especially) on this knee forum that I visit daily that struggle with dealing with acute or chronic knee pain. It's hard for those who've never been through it to understand how a "simple" knee injury can impact your youth whether it's middle school, high school, college, or even work. Pain (and chronic illnesses) affect your social life, your school work, your sleep, your work, your mind, and your soul. I want to write something that will encourage kids going through what I've gone through or even worse and give them hope when they feel they are in their darkest moments.
1 comment June 18, 2006
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Quotes About Love
I'm a romantic at heart and came across some of these quotes I had found when I was crazy about this guy back in my sophomore year. I've had many crushes, but this was so much more…
- We all want to fall in love. Why? Because that experience makes us feel completely alive. Where every sense is heightened, every emotion is magnified, our everyday reality is shattered and we are flying into the heavens. It may only last a moment, an hour, an afternoon. But that doesn't diminish it's value. Because we are left with memories that we treasure for the rest of our lives.
- Remember to always say what you mean. If you love someone, tell them. Don't be afraid to express yourself. Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you. Because when you decide that it is the right time it might be too late. Seize the day. Never have regrets. And most importantly, stay close to your friends and family, for they have helped make you the person that you are today.
- You complete me. Really, you do. You can make me smile even when I'm in my worst mood. Its only in your arms that I forget all my troubles and I have complete happiness. And you're the only one who can fill that gap in my heart, the space that has come to know you…that place that knows your the only one for me, that gap that will accept no one but you.
- You know when I realized I loved him? It was when I realized that anything that ever happened, good or bad, I wanted to tell him about. He was the first person I wanted to know, and I couldn't wait to tell him, and talk to him, and listen to him and it's like I love learning new things every time I talk to him.
- Everyday that goes by, it seems like I discover something new about you to love. It's incredible to me how one person can make such a big difference in my life. You touch me in a way no one else ever has and give me so many reasons to smile. I've never been so happy….and I've never been so in love.
- In every girl's life, there is a guy she will never forget and the summer when it all began. [Summer 2003]
- What is love? Girls at school walk around with things like 'I Love Brian' written on there hand. People toss the word 'love' around like it's something simple. To me, love is a strong bond that two people have between each other, whether they know it or not. Love is when your sitting in your room, and you see your loved one outside, so you open your window, just to hear there voice. Love is when you walk past your loved one, and you want to scream "Hey" so bad, but you stay quiet to save yourself from embarrassment. I've always wondered what it would be like to love someone, and for them to love me back. But what if, you know you love someone, you can feel it in your heart, and your knees shake every time you see them, and your heart skips a beat every time you hear their name called. But you don't know if the other person loves you back, or even has feelings for you. A lot of people try to hide there feelings, so there heart won't get broken, or even to save themselves from embarrassment because there friends might make fun of them. Well what happens when two people love each other, and both are afraid to share their feelings with anyone, because they know that no one will understand. What happens then? Is it true love? Or is just a feeling that a lonely girl wishes she had?
- I am scared that I'm always going to be somebody's friend or sister or confidant, but never quite somebody's everything.
- The easy part of life is finding someone to love. The hard part is finding someone to love you back.
- The worst thing a guy can do is let a girl fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall.
- In life, there are many things that we hope and dream for, love is but only one of them; though it seems that we spend all of our time looking for it, we probably keep walking right by it every time.
- When you love someone, it's nothing. When someone loves you, it's somthing. When you love someone and they love you back, it's everything.
- Wait for the guy who pursues you. The one who will make an ordinary moment seem magical, the kind of guy who brings out the best in you & makes you want to be a better person. Wait for the guy who will be your best friend, the person who will drop everything to be w/ you at any time of the day, no matter what the circumstances. Wait for the guy who makes you smile like no other, & when he smiles you know he needs you. Wait for the guy who wants to show you off to the world. Most of all wait for the guy who will put you at the center of his universe, because obviously hes at the center of yours.
- Love is just a word until someone you meet gives it a proper meaning.
- When you like someone, you like them in spite of their faults. When you love someone, you love them with their faults.
- If we discovered that we had only five minutes left to say all that we wanted to say, every telephone booth would be occupied by people calling other people to stammer that they loved them.
- I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me. I love you for the part of me that you bring out.
- You know you're in love when you can say anything to the person and you know they won't laugh at you.
When you can see their face when you close your eyes. When you can still feel their arms around you
Holding you tight long after they are gone. When you can still taste their kiss after you have said goodbye.
You can tell you're in love when you miss them before they are gone. When their voice lingers in your ears.
When their presence eases any pain. When their name sends chills down your spine.
When they are the only thing you can think about. You know you're in love when you can see all their hopes
And dreams and there soul when you look into their eyes. When their tears stain not only your shirt,
but alson your heart. When you are hurt just because of these tears. When even a simple chore done with them
Can become a lasting memory. Ultimately, you know you're in love when you can't imagine living without them,
And can't figure, how did you live before you knew them. When they fulfill every need and without them
You are incomplete. The love of someone else completes the heart, and soul, and mind all at once. - If you're alone, I'll be your shadow. If you want to cry, I'll be your shoulder. If you want a hug, I'll be your pillow. If you need to be happy, I'll be your smile. But anytime you need a friend, I'll just be me.
- You and I were meant to be. Period. The End. Cue happy ending music.
- Never let today's disappointments shadow tommorrow dreams.
- Sometimes you just feel everything and nothing all at once. Sometimes you'll find yourself smiling while missing something at the same time. At times, you can absolutely love a person, all the while wanting to hate them. Life comes without guarantees, except that smiling will brighten your face, laughing will enhance your eyes, and falling in love will change your life.
- You are every reason, every hope, and every dream I've ever had, and no matter what happens to us in the future, every day we are together is the greatest day of my life. I will always be yours. And, my darling, you will always be mine. – Nicholas Sparks, 'The Notebook'
- You can't get all caught up in wishing for something that won't happen.. you just got to move on to the next best thing.
- Summer romances end for all kinds of reasons, but when all is said and done, they have one thing in common. They're shooting stars, a spectacular moment of light in the heavens, fleeting glimpse of eternity, and in a flash they're gone. [the notebook]
Add comment June 17, 2006
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Feeling better…
Well in two days, it'll be a month since my ACL Revision. I am very happy I did it especially at the start of the summer. My brace is so heavy and hot that I don't think I could stand having to wear it during July and August. It also hasn't been quite as painful as my first ACLR, which is great. I'm also not taking as much pain medication as I did before my surgery. I can't believe I actually feel better!
I can finally put 50% of my weight on my bad knee, which is nice. After doing the same exercises 3x a day for a month, the exercises get soo boring. I'm hoping that when I see Dr. Noyes in Cincinnati on Tuesday that he'll allow me to put even more weight on my knee and to finally be able to use a stationary bike! I won't be able to make a full rotation yet since my ROM is only up to 100 degrees, but it'll certainly help increase my ROM and give me something new today!
I get really excited thinking about what I'll be able to do in another month or two. I should have at least another month of physical therapy appointments, which are boring but quite necessary. Once I finish my therapy sessions, my mom is going to pay for a personal trainer at Lifetime (where I have a gym membership right by my house). A trainer there has had many knee surgeries herself plus tons of qualifications so I'm hoping she can help give me some exercises for my whole body that won't place a lot of stress on my knee since most exercises in fitness magazines aren't so hot for mr. knee. I really want to lose some weight because I'd love to get back to my pre-knee injury days. When I was active in high school, I weighed 15-20 pounds less than I do now (almost four years later). And while I'm certainly in the normal range, I want to be more fit. It's just hard when you can't do anything cardio (including swimming and biking) and you don't eat a ton either. So I think having a personal trainer will really help with me getting more fit at least and that's all you can ask.
Now that I can drive, I feel much more independent and not so trapped within my house. I'm hoping to make it to Ann Arbor and Bloomfield Hills/Farmington within the next week or two. All my friends live at least half an hour away (from high school and college) so it's been a tad lonely. This also means I can attend my HopeKeepers meeting next Monday! One of the group leaders (who has Lupus) called me last week to ask how I was doing and I want to find out how Sharon did on her knee surgery, which she had a day before mine.
In one of my RestMinistries daily devotionals that are emailed out to the group, it said this:
Chronic Pain Syndrome causes a wide range of emotions, because you are not in control of the pain, it shows up daily like clock work. When pain shadows me and I cannot focus on the daily tasks of my day, I focused on HIM and The promises of His word. It is so wonderful to focus on the One who knows me and can soothe my emotions and my pain. He delivers His Scripture promises into my innermost being and they settle in me embracing my spirit. This has caused me to draw even closer to my LORD God because of my "mortal body state of affairs.
Sometimes when I'm really hurting, I do focus on God and it really helps, but other times I don't and I need to work on remembering to think of Him and pray instead of relying on my own ways.
Bible Verse of the Day: "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." (2 Corinthians 2:9 NIV)
Add comment June 2, 2006
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1 comment May 28, 2006
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Still recovering…
It's so amazing to me how exhausting recovery can be. I do over 3.5 hours of physical therapy, shower, and go out to eat (on special days) and it exhausts me. PT is hard. Going up and down stairs is hard – I still can't crutch up and down because I can only do that by placing some weight on my bad leg and that is still unacceptable. So I use my arms and push me up or lift me down. Let's just say that everytime I use crutches, my triceps get ripped. And so does my right leg (the good one) – with all the weight it has to support, it's so muscular which reminds me of track and how my quad's looked during the season…good times…
So aside from therapy, shower, and lunch, what did I do? Well, I watched 5 episodes of Grey's Anatomy from the first season. I didn't realize that there were only 9 episodes in the first one…I wished I was in Sara's room watching it with the gang because those were good times.
I also watched When a Stranger Calls with my family and that was a pretty good movie. When most people jump in a movie, my mom "yelps" really loud and that's scarier than any movie because it's so loud and unexpected lol.
I can't wait to drive. It's the longest period I've gone without driving. My previous surgeries prevented me from driving for a week or two, but I could always drive by then. My first ACL reconstruction was before I had my driver's license so that doesn't count. I drove over 25,000 miles in slightly over two years of high school between driving to school and my friends' houses (the one bad thing about living at least 30 minutes from my closest (geographically) friend. I love driving, not as much as running, but still a lot. A beautiful spring day with the windows down, hand hanging outside, the radio blasting, and the wind sifting through your air. One of the greatest feelings….
I also can't wait to attend a HopeKeeper's meeting (for people with chronic pain and illness) at NorthRidge Church. I won't go this week because I can't handle it plus the 24 finale is tomorrow night (2 whole hours of Jack Bauer saving the world)! But hopefully, I'll make it the following week because I miss the fellowship. Since I left college, I haven't seen a single friend. And while I totally understand (because I was in Florida and then recovering from surgery), it does get lonely at home.
A guy named Keith Miller once said, "Pain is like a fertilizer. It stinks when you're around it and you hate it. But after awhile you realize that the despicable stuff provided the nutrients for your growth." Philip Yancey, author of Where Is God When It Hurts?, asks his readers if we agree with that statement.
I can't think of anyone (except for those mentally sick people) who actually like pain – it sucks. It takes away your freedom and independence. It crumbles your self confidence and makes you question everything. It can literally stop you in your tracks. It sucks. I've been experiencing knee pain since I first hurt it in July of 2000 and have had chronic knee pain since September of 2003. I am certainly not the same person I was when I first hurt my knee. I'm more humble in the fact that I don't credit myself for my successes anymore (well, at least not as much). I've redetermined my priorities and sorted out what's really important to me. I've come to learn to appreciate the small things like getting in the shower with little or no pain.
At first, I lost my ability to run, to dribble, to shoot, to pivot, to sprint, to act like the average person. Then I lost my ability to walk or stand without pain. Now I can't do it without a brace or pair of crutches. It's truly humbling to go from being a star athlete who is addicted to sports (I'd spend my summers on my driveway running suicides and shooting hoops and then go run a mile or two around the neighborhood) to struggle to walk from my dorm room to our floor's bathroom. I would give almost anything to sprint one last time; to feel my arms pumping, my quads and lungs burning, the crowd cheering, the adrenaline of competition, and the glory of competition whether it results in a win, loss, or personal best time. If I could have one thing back, it would be the ability to sprint in the 100m dash – the most beautiful sporting event in the whole wide world…
To put it in perspective, I have the knee of a 60 year old. I'm a 19 year old girl who has arthritic changes in my knee and will need knee surgeries for who knows how long until I have a knee replacement or two in my 40s. And to grasp that new level of activity and come to cope with it, you have to grow as an individual. Otherwise, you'd fail. You'd give up. You'd become depressed. I would never want to go through this again, but I do like the person I am now so much more than the person I was 6 years ago in 8th grade.
Bible Verse: "Yet I am always with You; You hold me by my right hand. You guide me with Your counsel, and afterward You will take me into glory…My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." [Psalm 73:23-24,26]
Add comment May 22, 2006
livestrong19
You know you’ve been on crutches…
You know you've been on crutches too long when… [as compiled by myself and others on the KneeGeeks forum!] There were more than those listed below, but I chose only those applicable to me.
1) People are surprised to see you without them
2) Your arm muscles are in the best shape ever
3) You use them like chopsticks and don't have to bend over to pick something up
4) You have developed calluses right below your armpits and on your palms
5) You decorate your crutches for special occassions (ie. green and red ribbons for Christmas)
6) You have friends/co-workers/teachers sign them because you can get more messages/autographs than any cast!
7) You crutch faster than you walk
Strangers always marvel at your speed and agility on crutches
9) You dream of "pimping" out your crutches (ie. adding rhimestones and color)
10) You've learned to dance on them (or in my case, when you've gone to two Homecoming dances on them and with an immobilizer)
11) People call you gimpy b/c you are never without them (all my friends called me Gimpy, especially Phil)
12) You wish you could use the crutches b/c they help with pain, but you're OS (orthopedic surgeon) won't let you b/c your quads atrophy too much
13) Your friends get bummed when you don't have the crutches b/c they can't play "crutch and field 2004" and use the crutches to pole vault over couches, etc.
14) It's easier to push your way through a crowd b/c you can just hit people. haha. This was great in high school
15) It becomes a good luck charm on your high school track team
16) When, as a senior in high school, friends can't remember you ever off of them even though your freshman year was the only year you never used them
17) You look at them and feel at home
18) You absolutely have no problem opening doors or stopping them from closing much to the amazement of friends and family
19) You get sad when your PT or OS tells you to wean yourself down to one crutch because it slows you down
4 comments May 21, 2006
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Where’s your inner-compass pointing?
Christy, your best adventures are Sun-Drenched Journeys

Rain, rain, go away. Wherever there is glorious sunshine, that’s where you’re sure to be. For a laidback soul like you, you define adventure by where you are more than by what you’re doing. So, while a day in the city is nice, a day at the beach is heaven. L.A.? Miami? St. Tropez? You bet!
For a sun-worshipper like you, adventure isn’t about the adrenaline rush or a brush with danger. It’s about getting a little R&R under clear blue skies. So grab your shades and hit the road. It’s time to soak up the sun!
What’s your buried secret?
Christy, you bury secrets about your love life

Way to keep ‘em wondering! When it comes to affairs of the heart, your lips stay sealed. Whether you’ve had your share of heartache or done the heartbreaking yourself, you know that not much good comes from kissing and telling.
You’re a passionate person who takes relationships to heart. While some people dish up intimate details of their love lives around the water cooler, you’ve got more respect for your sweethearts than to reduce them to email fodder. If your name happens to circulate through the rumor mill, it’s only because you’re so mysterious. Who says romance is dead?
What’s your song?
Christy, YOUR song is Every Breath You Take

Romantic and soulful, it’s no surprise your signature song is just as sweet as you are. When it comes to a night on the town, we’d guess you’d rather enjoy a candlelit dinner for two or a low-key night hanging out with friends than a wild party or chaotic club.
And while your signature song may not bring the house down, it never fails to inspire that loving feelin’ in everyone. That’s why it’s so perfect for you a big-hearted person like you who’s always thinking of others. So, keep it up. It’s nothing short of breathtaking!
What type of girlfriend are you?
Christy, you’re an Amorous Adventurer
Carefree and fun, you are easily excited when it comes to new experiences — and that includes relationships. It’s not that you see boyfriends as frivolous pursuits, but you enjoy the art of the chase, and you work to make sure that long-term relationships maintain that sense of adventure and surprise.
You may not be the type of girlfriend who spends every waking hour with her man, but that doesn’t mean you’re not thinking about him. You’re just an independent woman, and it’s important for you to feel challenged and creative in most things you do. That’s what makes any relationship an adventure.
2 comments May 20, 2006
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Buy these DVDs
- Grey's Anatomy (Season One)
- LOTR (Trilogy – Special Edition)
- Seinfeld (Seasons 1/2, 3)
- Friends (Seasons 1-2, 4-8)
- Fresh Prince of Bel-Air (Season 3)
Add comment May 19, 2006
livestrong19
Lord of the Rings
So in my free time, I have watched the extended version of each LOTR movie which are soo much better than the theater editions. So why do I like LOTR?
1) The acting is superb. With all of the special effects, most of the actors had to interact with some “fake” monster with the blue screen as the background.
2) The struggle of evil vs. goodness. The white vs. black images whether it’s clothing, horses, birds, etc.
3) Action. And lots of it!
4) Romance between Aragorn and Arwyn.
5) Horror-like elements
6) Gollum’s split personality and obsession over the ring
7) The sexy men (Aragorn and Legolas especially)
Beautiful scenery (Rivendale is so perfect)
9) Hobbit and dwarf humor
10) Amazing special effects
Add comment May 19, 2006
livestrong19
Day #9
Today wasn’t actually as bad as yesterday. I even went to see the movie Poseiden with my parents and brother after lunch. The most pain I was in today was after the movie because I had gone so long without ice and my knee was burning like crazy! But overall, yesterday was certainly more painful so that’s a nice improvement!
Add comment May 13, 2006
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